Have you ever been with someone and never felt more alone? I have been in several relationships that I would consider "serious." Sure, I am only 27 but I have been dating since I was 15 and every boy/man I dated I thought I was FOR SURE going to marry him. The thing is, within … Continue reading Alone, not Lonely
I have always said that the physical symptoms of my anxiety are much worse than the mental symptoms. Yes, obsessing over worries and constantly thinking about impending doom is rough. But it is much more challenging to calm yourself down when your heart is beating so fast it feels like it will pop out of … Continue reading Could it be panic disorder?
Ideally women should be: QuietSexyModestA good cookConservativeMinimize their ideas and themselvesHelpfulSubmissiveFriendlyWarmMaternaland most of all THIN This isn't a new concept. You see plastered images everywhere of thin women. Thin women who want to sell you clothes, thin women who want to sell you a dating app, thin women who want to sell you a pharmaceutical … Continue reading The Pressure To Be Thin
This isn't me but I was too lazy to find my own photo so here is a stock photo of a woman loving herself. Self hate can look like a lot of different things, right? It could be stifling your creativity, it could be self harm, it could be not getting the help that you … Continue reading How I Started To Love Myself
I have been "in" therapy since November 2017. Now that I am thinking about it, I don't think I have ever consistently seen a provider for this long. If you've been reading my blog for a while, you know that I absolutely love my therapist, Camille. Is she my person? Yes. If I told her … Continue reading Why I Still Go To Therapy Even Though I “Feel Better”
"Well, if you hadn't been such a fuck up, your life wouldn't be this way now." "I really think you should stop writing about your personal life on the internet." "Why would you change your hair?" "You shouldn't be dating as a mom." "If you lose weight, you will find a husband more easily." "Don't … Continue reading Incapable of Support
Blossoming Part 1: How One Thing Can Change Your Life "You're an inspiration" "You are so talented" "You inspire me to talk about my own mental health" "You're happiness is contagious" "You are absolutely hilarious" or my personal favorite "Please sex chat me" Yeah.. and I am wildly depressed sometimes and other times I am … Continue reading Blossoming Part 2: The Tougher Days
You've probably heard that one small change in your life can impact all the other aspects of your life, right? For instance, working out can make you want to eat healthier (or so they say). I am very body positive and against classifying foods as healthy and unhealthy, you can read about it here. Anyway, … Continue reading Blossoming Part 1: How One Thing Can Change Your Life
"Who even am I anymore???" You've seen it. The constant memes, posts, t shirts, mugs, backpacks, bumper stickers and all kinds of other shit with "Mom" on it in some way or another. There are the nonstop posters on Instagram where EVERY post is about motherhood. I ask them in my head "what about YOU?" … Continue reading Who are you besides a mom?
The thing is, nobody can answer this question. Not me, not my therapist, not any of my friends. I think the hardest thing is that nobody truly knows how I feel. Nobody knows that sometimes its hard to get out of bed and already be tearing up between walking to my bed and the bathroom … Continue reading When will I feel better?