Chasing Euphoria

I sat in my Psychiatrists office a few months ago giving an update about how my medications were impacting my symptoms and mood. She asked me I feel as happy as I did when I first began taking Pristiq.. that was a huge "HELL NO". She explained that since I was so depleted, my brain … Continue reading Chasing Euphoria

Therapy Update: Boundaries Within My Family

"Because you are women, people will force their thinking on you, their boundaries on you. They will tell you how to dress, how to behave, who you can meet and where you can go. Don't live in the shadows of people's judgement. Make your own choices in the light of your own wisdom." - Amitabh … Continue reading Therapy Update: Boundaries Within My Family

Just Get Over It

"Just get over it!" "That was a very long time ago." "It is what it is." "You shouldn't be affected by that." "At least it wasn't rape." "You could have it a lot worse." "Why are you still thinking about it?" "You need to move on with your life." "Not every guy is like that." … Continue reading Just Get Over It

How I Started To Love Myself

This isn't me but I was too lazy to find my own photo so here is a stock photo of a woman loving herself. Self hate can look like a lot of different things, right? It could be stifling your creativity, it could be self harm, it could be not getting the help that you … Continue reading How I Started To Love Myself

Blossoming Part 2: The Tougher Days

Blossoming Part 1: How One Thing Can Change Your Life  "You're an inspiration" "You are so talented" "You inspire me to talk about my own mental health" "You're happiness is contagious" "You are absolutely hilarious" or my personal favorite "Please sex chat me" Yeah.. and I am wildly depressed sometimes and other times I am … Continue reading Blossoming Part 2: The Tougher Days

Part 1: So, just tell me about middle school then

When I think about my life, I think about it in phases or segments. Its compartmentalized to different years like before I moved to Houston or after I was sent to boarding school or after I had consensual sex. I don't think of my life as a fluid progression. I almost feel like a different … Continue reading Part 1: So, just tell me about middle school then

The Next 6 Months

Recently (Yes, like 5 days ago) I decided that the long distance love thing wasn't working for me. When I think about a relationship or getting to know someone, I think about doing the most normal things together but they feel like magic. Like, going to the farmer's market or after sex Netflix binge watching. … Continue reading The Next 6 Months

Highly Functional and Mentally Ill: What You Don’t Understand

Highly functional in the realm of mental illness is typically described as someone who has many symptoms of a mental illness or is diagnosed with a mental illness but continues to work and live life in a somewhat "functional" way. When I met my therapist, she described some of the patients that she typically works … Continue reading Highly Functional and Mentally Ill: What You Don’t Understand

Living With The Regret of Not Getting Help Sooner

I started seeing my therapist in November 2017. Soon after that, I went to see a psychiatrist (the first one I saw didn't listen to me at all and it was just a bad connection *cue the old AOL dial tone noise*). I went to see another psychiatrist and the medicine she has prescribed has … Continue reading Living With The Regret of Not Getting Help Sooner

Why Losing Weight Shouldn’t Be Your New Year Resolution PLUS 3 Resolutions That Will Bring You JOY

Making New Year Resolutions dates back to Biblical times and if you ask me, the first cavemen were probably doing it as well. I can hear them now "I am definitely cutting out buffalo this year, it just really isn't doing much for my figure."  What about you? Do you make New Year Resolutions? I … Continue reading Why Losing Weight Shouldn’t Be Your New Year Resolution PLUS 3 Resolutions That Will Bring You JOY