Chasing Euphoria

I sat in my Psychiatrists office a few months ago giving an update about how my medications were impacting my symptoms and mood. She asked me I feel as happy as I did when I first began taking Pristiq.. that was a huge "HELL NO". She explained that since I was so depleted, my brain … Continue reading Chasing Euphoria

PTSD Symptom Spotlight: Hypervigilance

Before I went to a psychiatrist or a therapist, I wholeheartedly believed that my behaviors and thoughts were normal. I always thought "I wonder how other people deal with this" or "Why doesn't it seem like other people are focused on the same things as me?" I can assure you that the PTSD diagnosis did … Continue reading PTSD Symptom Spotlight: Hypervigilance

Highly Functional and Mentally Ill: Coping Ahead

I wrote a blog post back in December 2018 Highly Functional and Mentally Ill: What You Don't Understand, besides any post about sex (go figure), this was one of my most popular blogs. In that post I wrote about hiding your condition, trying to keep it altogether with work and within relationships, how to spot … Continue reading Highly Functional and Mentally Ill: Coping Ahead

I won’t be minimized so.. stop trying

Has anyone ever tried to make you feel ashamed for being who you are? I have had quite a few people try to minimize me over the years. Family, friends, boyfriends and coworkers. The funny thing is (not funny but you see where I am going..) nobody was ever worried about me when I was … Continue reading I won’t be minimized so.. stop trying

Incapable of Support

"Well, if you hadn't been such a fuck up, your life wouldn't be this way now." "I really think you should stop writing about your personal life on the internet." "Why would you change your hair?" "You shouldn't be dating as a mom." "If you lose weight, you will find a husband more easily." "Don't … Continue reading Incapable of Support

Living With The Regret of Not Getting Help Sooner

I started seeing my therapist in November 2017. Soon after that, I went to see a psychiatrist (the first one I saw didn't listen to me at all and it was just a bad connection *cue the old AOL dial tone noise*). I went to see another psychiatrist and the medicine she has prescribed has … Continue reading Living With The Regret of Not Getting Help Sooner

Parenting with PTSD: Parenting Through Fear

I have PTSD. Not the kind that most people think about. I haven't been to a war. I haven't been in a car accident. I haven't watched a loved one die in front of my eyes.  I have PTSD from sexual and relationship based trauma as well as from the abandonment I felt from being sent to boarding … Continue reading Parenting with PTSD: Parenting Through Fear

7 Statements on Early Sexual Trauma & The Impact on Adult Relationships

Before you read through the next 7 statements, make sure you read my experience with the MeToo movement I have PTSD. I was not diagnosed until February 2018. I lived with these symptoms for the better part of 10 years.  Sex is about the other person and their pleasure, only.  When you have early sexual trauma, … Continue reading 7 Statements on Early Sexual Trauma & The Impact on Adult Relationships