I won’t be minimized so.. stop trying

Has anyone ever tried to make you feel ashamed for being who you are? I have had quite a few people try to minimize me over the years. Family, friends, boyfriends and coworkers. The funny thing is (not funny but you see where I am going..) nobody was ever worried about me when I was … Continue reading I won’t be minimized so.. stop trying

The Pressure To Be Thin

Ideally women should be: QuietSexyModestA good cookConservativeMinimize their ideas and themselvesHelpfulSubmissiveFriendlyWarmMaternaland most of all THIN This isn't a new concept. You see plastered images everywhere of thin women. Thin women who want to sell you clothes, thin women who want to sell you a dating app, thin women who want to sell you a pharmaceutical … Continue reading The Pressure To Be Thin

How I Started To Love Myself

This isn't me but I was too lazy to find my own photo so here is a stock photo of a woman loving herself. Self hate can look like a lot of different things, right? It could be stifling your creativity, it could be self harm, it could be not getting the help that you … Continue reading How I Started To Love Myself

Why I Still Go To Therapy Even Though I “Feel Better”

I have been "in" therapy since November 2017. Now that I am thinking about it, I don't think I have ever consistently seen a provider for this long. If you've been reading my blog for a while, you know that I absolutely love my therapist, Camille. Is she my person? Yes. If I told her … Continue reading Why I Still Go To Therapy Even Though I “Feel Better”

Incapable of Support

"Well, if you hadn't been such a fuck up, your life wouldn't be this way now." "I really think you should stop writing about your personal life on the internet." "Why would you change your hair?" "You shouldn't be dating as a mom." "If you lose weight, you will find a husband more easily." "Don't … Continue reading Incapable of Support

Part 2: What would I say to my 14 year old self if I could?

I talk a lot about feeling like I am frozen in time. I feel like my emotions are sometimes that of an adolescent girl. Sure, I feel like I am an adult, there is no doubt about that. But, when it comes to feeling alone, abandoned and emotional, I feel like a young teenager. I … Continue reading Part 2: What would I say to my 14 year old self if I could?

Parenting with PTSD: Parenting Through Fear

I have PTSD. Not the kind that most people think about. I haven't been to a war. I haven't been in a car accident. I haven't watched a loved one die in front of my eyes.  I have PTSD from sexual and relationship based trauma as well as from the abandonment I felt from being sent to boarding … Continue reading Parenting with PTSD: Parenting Through Fear

3 Signs Your Job Is Negatively Impacting Your Mental Health and Questions To Ask Yourself

I have been in jobs where I feel like my creativity, my voice and my autonomy were been stifled. I have been in roles where I feel like I have "permission" to flourish and lead. I obviously prefer the latter. I am a High D High I (Disc Profiling Explained) and require a certain amount of … Continue reading 3 Signs Your Job Is Negatively Impacting Your Mental Health and Questions To Ask Yourself

7 Statements on Early Sexual Trauma & The Impact on Adult Relationships

Before you read through the next 7 statements, make sure you read my experience with the MeToo movement I have PTSD. I was not diagnosed until February 2018. I lived with these symptoms for the better part of 10 years.  Sex is about the other person and their pleasure, only.  When you have early sexual trauma, … Continue reading 7 Statements on Early Sexual Trauma & The Impact on Adult Relationships