Just Get Over It

"Just get over it!" "That was a very long time ago." "It is what it is." "You shouldn't be affected by that." "At least it wasn't rape." "You could have it a lot worse." "Why are you still thinking about it?" "You need to move on with your life." "Not every guy is like that." … Continue reading Just Get Over It

Alone, not Lonely

Have you ever been with someone and never felt more alone? I have been in several relationships that I would consider "serious." Sure, I am only 27 but I have been dating since I was 15 and every boy/man I dated I thought I was FOR SURE going to marry him. The thing is, within … Continue reading Alone, not Lonely

Could it be panic disorder?

I have always said that the physical symptoms of my anxiety are much worse than the mental symptoms. Yes, obsessing over worries and constantly thinking about impending doom is rough. But it is much more challenging to calm yourself down when your heart is beating so fast it feels like it will pop out of … Continue reading Could it be panic disorder?

How I Started To Love Myself

This isn't me but I was too lazy to find my own photo so here is a stock photo of a woman loving herself. Self hate can look like a lot of different things, right? It could be stifling your creativity, it could be self harm, it could be not getting the help that you … Continue reading How I Started To Love Myself

Why I Still Go To Therapy Even Though I “Feel Better”

I have been "in" therapy since November 2017. Now that I am thinking about it, I don't think I have ever consistently seen a provider for this long. If you've been reading my blog for a while, you know that I absolutely love my therapist, Camille. Is she my person? Yes. If I told her … Continue reading Why I Still Go To Therapy Even Though I “Feel Better”

Incapable of Support

"Well, if you hadn't been such a fuck up, your life wouldn't be this way now." "I really think you should stop writing about your personal life on the internet." "Why would you change your hair?" "You shouldn't be dating as a mom." "If you lose weight, you will find a husband more easily." "Don't … Continue reading Incapable of Support

Blossoming Part 2: The Tougher Days

Blossoming Part 1: How One Thing Can Change Your Life  "You're an inspiration" "You are so talented" "You inspire me to talk about my own mental health" "You're happiness is contagious" "You are absolutely hilarious" or my personal favorite "Please sex chat me" Yeah.. and I am wildly depressed sometimes and other times I am … Continue reading Blossoming Part 2: The Tougher Days

Blossoming Part 1: How One Thing Can Change Your Life

You've probably heard that one small change in your life can impact all the other aspects of your life, right? For instance, working out can make you want to eat healthier (or so they say). I am very body positive and against classifying foods as healthy and unhealthy, you can read about it here. Anyway, … Continue reading Blossoming Part 1: How One Thing Can Change Your Life

When will I feel better?

The thing is, nobody can answer this question. Not me, not my therapist, not any of my friends. I think the hardest thing is that nobody truly knows how I feel. Nobody knows that sometimes its hard to get out of bed and already be tearing up between walking to my bed and the bathroom … Continue reading When will I feel better?

Part 1: So, just tell me about middle school then

When I think about my life, I think about it in phases or segments. Its compartmentalized to different years like before I moved to Houston or after I was sent to boarding school or after I had consensual sex. I don't think of my life as a fluid progression. I almost feel like a different … Continue reading Part 1: So, just tell me about middle school then